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Today I Choose…… – The Weight of My Weight

When this mug was new, it said Today I Choose Happiness. Happiness was in this pretty gold lettering. Well, I’ve continued to put this in the dishwasher, and the Happiness has worn off. Now each time I have coffee from this mug, I think about what it is I Choose for myself for the day.

Yesterday I chose to Breathe, think about our new grand baby and get through the day.

New grand baby?? Yes!!

Rockwell (7 lbs 6 oz and 20″ long) was born Tuesday morning around 5:00 am. Mom and baby are healthy and they may get to come home tonight!

Daddy and Rocky…..

Thankful for Rockwell as it’s been a tough few days here and we all needed some good news. This is baby number two in our family born during Covid, so we missed out on that moment in the hospital waiting room pacing in great anticipation for the baby to be born, then the opportunity to be with mom and dad in the room and hold that sweet little guy.

I thought about that moment all day yesterday. I thought about all that is missing right now.

Tess and Manuel drove in from Dallas on Monday. While they were driving here, there was an hour by hour update on how everyone was feeling since Christmas Eve didn’t go as planned. At some point it became clear that getting together was not going to happen and we canceled yet another family get together.

So not only did we have to downsize our Christmas Eve at the last minute from 19 to 7, we had to cancel our big family get together scheduled for Tuesday night. That’s the big event for us. That’s the one where we all gather in the living room and I pass out 19 stockings that I spend the majority of December shopping to fill. Watching as each person pulls one item at a time out of their stocking is my Christmas morning.

Christmas was cancelled.

It. Is. Wearing. On. Me.

I’m so happy we were able to all gather at the cabin in October and have a houseful for Thanksgiving. These steps backwards with Covid the last several days have brought so much disappointment and put me in an emotional funk.

The last two weeks felt off and I wonder if somewhere in my mind, I knew it wasn’t going to happen. The 19 plastic bags with names written in sharpie on them, still remain in the basement in a box as we try and decide a clever way to give everyone their filled stockings.

Today as I sip my coffee from this brightly colored purple mug, I have to ask myself….

How will I choose to spend today?

We have a healthy new family member, Tess and Manuel are here, and at some point today and tomorrow we will get in a visit with my mom and dad.

Yesterday Mike was gone most of the day working and the three of us knew we’d be spending the day at the house.

Tess and Manuel decided to work on a puzzle and that started game day.

When was the last time you played Monopoly? The three of us agreed that we’d never played as adults. After a five hour game, we learned a lot, but may never play again. lol

I was the first one to bankrupt in Monopoly, so I opened my Trailer House and got to work.

I got outside the last two days for long walks and worked on filling my head with positive thoughts. Being outside and breathing in fresh air did help.

Surrounded by sweets now……I’ll freeze or trash anything left today.

Sorry for the downer post.

Today I Choose Happiness. Somedays that takes a very mindful effort.

“love the life you live, live the life you love”



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